I've got it, although it seems like everything I touch turns to crap.
I feel like crap right now. I'm sure it's my new pills, I was warned they may upset my stomach. They are. I have had no appetite for the last two days, and right now, I feel like I could puke. I ate something, hoping that would help, and I know soon the pills will knock me out, so I'll be asleep.
I also was warned that these new pills could make me suicidal for the first two weeks, while I don't feel suicidal, I am super down.
There is water all over the basement again, I ran a load of laundry, this time water went every where cause the wash tub over flowed. I felt like I was making headway, with the upstairs being tidy, except the kitchen, which I was going to work on tomorrow, but now I feel like the house is a wreck.
The basement is my junk pile, there is so much crap just piled up on the floor all over the place, and now there are dirty/wet clothes and water all over the floor.
And while the house is tidy, I need to wash all the bedding, I haven't vacuumed in like two months, the bathroom needs a good scrubbing as does the kitchen. But I'm never home. And when I am, I'm too tired.
I feel like a worthless wife and mother. To me that is what is important, being a wife and mother. Being there for my family. And I'm not. I'm shit, I'm worthless. I can barely function when I'm home, and that's not very much.
I really hope these pills work. I need to feel better. I need to be in a better mood and have more energy. Things need to get better.