Saturday, July 30, 2011


I am lazy.  That is one of my biggest faults, that I would like to change.  And it's not just physically lazy, I'm mentally lazy too.  I want to write.  Both in blogging, and in general writing, like a novel.  I have many many great ideas.  For both blogs and novels.  But I can never seem to make myself sit and write.  I get on the computer and wander aimlessly on facebook.  I have no self discipline.  I use the excuse there is not enough time, I have too much house work, on and on and on.  But it all boils down to me being lazy.  Today, the only house work I have to do, is basic stuff.  General picking up of the house, and dishes.  I got up 12 hours ago, and I still have the dishes and tidying the kitchen to go.  I did run errands for an hour, and other than that, I've done a whole lot of time wasting.  It's not to say that I shouldn't have relaxing days now and then, and it's not to say I feel like I should be working every waking moment of the day, but I need to find balance.  I have done some reading today, I started "Danse Macabre" (Stephen King) today.  So far it's my least favorite thing I've read by him.  But I'm reading all his books in the order they were published, and this is what's next, so I'll plug through, but I'm looking forward to going back to his fiction.

But I digress.

I need to get my act together.  I'm going to go back to Tools To Life.  I need to do that again, I was on the ball when I was following that, and I am going to take it slow, doing each day for one week, to make sure I get it down.  I do like the program, I just need to take it slower so I don't get overwhelmed again.  Here's a link if anyone is interested.

But I need to work on getting more disciplined, with house work, with exercise, with writing, with everything. I need to get in gear before Sept.  I will have a lot more to do in the fall, when school starts back up, and I took on an extra role when it comes to Girl Scouts this year.  So I need more discipline.

I really think that's one of the reason's I'm so drawn to submission/slavery.  It calls for discipline, both from someone else, and from myself.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

New start

I've started many many blogs before, but this one is different.  This one is totally anonymous.  My Master/Husband will have a link, and other than that, people will have to stumble upon it.  I've made a Pseudonym to blog and use on various BDSM websites, in fact, I even made a Facebook, and Google+ page with this name.  I am allowed to talk more about this aspect of my life this way, provided I follow Master's rules, no using real names or photos. Which I am fine with.  I will refer to Him as Master.  Which I don't do, though would love to do, in real life.  I couldn't do it in front of our little one, but when we are alone, or in texts, I would like to.  In fact, I think I will start doing it in text and emails, and see what He thinks of it.
I am hoping that He reads this blog, maybe even gives me things to blog about.  I think it would be a great way for us to get to know each other.

I think that's it for a first blog.  I need to finish getting the house in order before I go to bed!