Monday, April 2, 2012


I hate being a girl.  I hate hormones and PMS.  I hate that while I know why I currently feel the way I do, I can't stop it.

I've been tired and depressed on and off for about a week.  My period is late, my back hurts, I'm emotional.  I want to make tons of changes, do a bunch of things, but I have no energy to do any of it.

I went to the mall with my daughter today.  I hate the mall, and today, even the few stores I do care for in the mall, I couldn't stand today.

I feel down, unhappy, not pretty, fat, just blah.

I think part of the reason I don't like going to the mall is because it just reinforces that I'm not good enough.  I don't have enough money to buy things, I'm not thin enough to fit into the clothes there, I'm not young enough to  be there in general.

I'm just feeling down on myself.  I don't enjoy feeling this way.

I'm thinking about going to bed and just sleeping.

1 comment:

  1. I know that feeling all too well unfortunately. I hope things improve :)