When did I become an adult? I don't remember it happening, and I still feel like the same person (pretty much) as I did when I was 16. I can be responsible, but I don't want to. Then again, I wonder how many adults DO want to be responsible. How many people would much rather just play, have fun, than work and such.
I also have a daughter on the verge of becoming a teen ager, and I hate that! She is 11, but I swear to God she is already PMSing, and her moods are getting to be not so great. I had a talk with her today, after my sister mentioned that she noticed a bit of an attitude from her. I'm hoping that will help for a little while.
But I'm realizing I do need to suck it up, and start doing more, as much as I don't want to.
I'm thinking about making a list, of 52 things to do this year, one for each week. Either a new habit, or something that I've been putting off for far too long. I think it's a good idea, and for the rest of this year, I'll work on making the list. It won't be in any certain order, but I WILL do 1 thing each week. Be it starting a new habit, or just something getting done.
Here's to being a grown up in 2012!
Sunday, December 11, 2011
New rule, and some random thoughts
So, I requested new rules from my Master, and he decided that I should refocus on the ones I already have, as I've been slacking, but he did allow me to add that I need to blog every night. So, today is the first night of that.
I am looking forward to the new year, I want to, and need to make some changes and plans. One thing I'm excited about is that Master says we will be getting iPhones and iPads this year, wooohooo!!! He says we will start with our tax returns, this will be one year I'll be doing taxes ASAP! I am also hoping my extra hours keep up, cause then we should be able to buy them fairly quickly too!
I am debating on going back to head covering too, something that I've done in the past, but stopped doing. I'm feeling the call to do that, and wear dresses more (maybe not full time, we'll see), but I need to talk to Master about his thoughts first.
Anyway, it's getting super late, and Master and I need to get up (fairly) early for CHRISTMAS shopping for DD!
Here's to blogging on a regular basis.
I am looking forward to the new year, I want to, and need to make some changes and plans. One thing I'm excited about is that Master says we will be getting iPhones and iPads this year, wooohooo!!! He says we will start with our tax returns, this will be one year I'll be doing taxes ASAP! I am also hoping my extra hours keep up, cause then we should be able to buy them fairly quickly too!
I am debating on going back to head covering too, something that I've done in the past, but stopped doing. I'm feeling the call to do that, and wear dresses more (maybe not full time, we'll see), but I need to talk to Master about his thoughts first.
Anyway, it's getting super late, and Master and I need to get up (fairly) early for CHRISTMAS shopping for DD!
Here's to blogging on a regular basis.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes
It's time!
I need to make changes, and I have been.
Health wise, our family joined the Y, I just added new machines to my weight routine today. I am also on week one of a Couch to 5K program. I am doing this for a few reasons. One, is to look hot. I'm going to be honest, that's what this blog is for. I don't feel hot. I used to be hot, I just didn't realize it then, but I want to be hot again. Second, is because I think being in shape will improve our sex life, better endurance, better flexibility, etc. I just want to be healthier too, I want the whole family to be healthier.
That being said, my Master has been working out as well, mostly on the weights, and I'm so happy and excited about that. I worry about him, I don't mind that he is a big guy, not at all, but I want him to be healthy so he will be with me a long long time!
Also, our daughter has been going too. She and Master have gone swimming a few times, she has done the various cardio machines, and she is in Karate, she is a white belt, working on her first stripe.
Then there are the financial changes. I just finished reading Dave Ramsey's Total Money Makeover, and I would like to follow his plan. I'm working on selling stuff on Craigslist and eBay, to get us started (and to help cover Christmas). I also opened a savings account to use for next year to save for Christmas, then I'll be able to buy people what I WANT to buy them! Not just the bare minimum! So, I'm excited about that.
With all that in place, I need to work on a routine, so I'm also going to figure out a plan for keeping the house tidy, and then one for deep cleaning the house on a regular basis.
I'm not going to fool myself, the house won't be up to the standards that I want, but I will keep it decent.
I will also be getting more hours at work, at least for now. Which is a blessing, and a curse. I don't enjoy working, I won't lie. I don't mind being a bank teller, I can handle the customers, even when they are asses, and I can handle the money, and balancing. What I hate is the fact that they make us sell things to every customer. I don't mind if a customer could use something, like a person that has a large amount of money in a checking account, earning no interest, of course I'll recommend a savings. Or if a person has a mortgage with 7% interest, of COURSE I'm going to tell them they need to refinance! But to push credit cards on people that can already barely make ends meet, I don't want to help them dig them selves into the hole I'm in. So I won't do that. But, our branch just lost a teller, she got a new job, so there are more hours there, plus there are other branches that are short handed, and I'm helping out a few days at one of them as well. While I would much rather only be working the 24 or so hours a week, but, we need the money, and as I'm a slave, and part of this family, I will do my part.
And, I also plan to start cooking more, I went through my crock pot cook books this evening, and made notes of recipes I'd like to try. I'm thinking maybe 2 a week to start.
I'm excited about all these changes, for the good. I know there will be set backs, but the point will be, not to let them get me down, and stop me.
I need to make changes, and I have been.
Health wise, our family joined the Y, I just added new machines to my weight routine today. I am also on week one of a Couch to 5K program. I am doing this for a few reasons. One, is to look hot. I'm going to be honest, that's what this blog is for. I don't feel hot. I used to be hot, I just didn't realize it then, but I want to be hot again. Second, is because I think being in shape will improve our sex life, better endurance, better flexibility, etc. I just want to be healthier too, I want the whole family to be healthier.
That being said, my Master has been working out as well, mostly on the weights, and I'm so happy and excited about that. I worry about him, I don't mind that he is a big guy, not at all, but I want him to be healthy so he will be with me a long long time!
Also, our daughter has been going too. She and Master have gone swimming a few times, she has done the various cardio machines, and she is in Karate, she is a white belt, working on her first stripe.
Then there are the financial changes. I just finished reading Dave Ramsey's Total Money Makeover, and I would like to follow his plan. I'm working on selling stuff on Craigslist and eBay, to get us started (and to help cover Christmas). I also opened a savings account to use for next year to save for Christmas, then I'll be able to buy people what I WANT to buy them! Not just the bare minimum! So, I'm excited about that.
With all that in place, I need to work on a routine, so I'm also going to figure out a plan for keeping the house tidy, and then one for deep cleaning the house on a regular basis.
I'm not going to fool myself, the house won't be up to the standards that I want, but I will keep it decent.
I will also be getting more hours at work, at least for now. Which is a blessing, and a curse. I don't enjoy working, I won't lie. I don't mind being a bank teller, I can handle the customers, even when they are asses, and I can handle the money, and balancing. What I hate is the fact that they make us sell things to every customer. I don't mind if a customer could use something, like a person that has a large amount of money in a checking account, earning no interest, of course I'll recommend a savings. Or if a person has a mortgage with 7% interest, of COURSE I'm going to tell them they need to refinance! But to push credit cards on people that can already barely make ends meet, I don't want to help them dig them selves into the hole I'm in. So I won't do that. But, our branch just lost a teller, she got a new job, so there are more hours there, plus there are other branches that are short handed, and I'm helping out a few days at one of them as well. While I would much rather only be working the 24 or so hours a week, but, we need the money, and as I'm a slave, and part of this family, I will do my part.
And, I also plan to start cooking more, I went through my crock pot cook books this evening, and made notes of recipes I'd like to try. I'm thinking maybe 2 a week to start.
I'm excited about all these changes, for the good. I know there will be set backs, but the point will be, not to let them get me down, and stop me.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Submissive Blog Hop Challenge #1 | 25 Things
This month’s challenge: 25 Things About You and Your Submission
Since this is the introductory Blog Hop on Submissive Guide I want you to sort of introduce yourself and share some interesting things about yourself and your submission. You can choose to focus on anything you wish as long as you stay within the topic.
1) My Master and I have been married for almost 14 years.
2)We have been together for almost 17 years.
3) I was 19 when we first started dating.
4) Our marriage started out vanilla, we have only been working on the D/s, M/s aspects for about a year now.
5) I am 35, my Master is 48.
6) I am the one who brought up BDSM, he had never heard of it.
7) I was a SAHM for 11 years, and just started working again this July.
8) My Master works midnights, I work days, so we have a very limited amount of time together.
9) We have an 11 year old daughter with Autism.
10) I am a Girl Scout leader.
11) I am a huge fan of the horror genre, both books and movies.
12) I am doing my best to "teach" my Master what it is to be a Master. (So to speak.)
13) He had me create my "alter ego" (Autumn Raine Skye), when I told him I wanted to reach out to other members of the BDSM community, online.
14) We don't have nearly as many rules, protocol's or routines as I would like.... or THINK I would like.
15) I write my Master 2 emails every night before I go to bed.
16) Because of these emails, and my writing the occasional fantasy in them, my Master has discovered that, according to him, I am a very good writer. Hearing that made me very happy.
17) I am a very shy person, and submissive in general, not just with my Master.
18) I would do anything to be a SAHM again.
19) I have recently discovered that I would like to play more with a belt.
20) I really enjoy spankings
21) I asked my Master if I could call him Master, and I'm still working on getting used to it.
22) My Master and I are working on changing aspects of our lives, including eating healthier and working out.
23) There are times I wish he was a bit more firm with me.
24) I sometimes feel I don't do all I should be doing for my Master
25) I love my Master and plan to spend the rest of my life with him.
If you enjoyed my list, check out this link where there is a list of all the other participants!
19) I have recently discovered that I would like to play more with a belt.
20) I really enjoy spankings
21) I asked my Master if I could call him Master, and I'm still working on getting used to it.
22) My Master and I are working on changing aspects of our lives, including eating healthier and working out.
23) There are times I wish he was a bit more firm with me.
24) I sometimes feel I don't do all I should be doing for my Master
25) I love my Master and plan to spend the rest of my life with him.
If you enjoyed my list, check out this link where there is a list of all the other participants!
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Getting healthy
Ok, really, I need to loose weight. I need to get in shape, I need to eat better and work out more (or just work out, since I don't work out at all right now!) So, with some encouragement from a fellow Fetlifer, I signed up for myfitnesspal. Under the same username, Autumnraineskye. If anyone wants to friend me there, feel free!
SO! Tomorrow, I start drinking my water, eating more fruit, tracking my food, and exercise, and I will be squeezing in more exercise time.
I want to do this for many reasons, to be able to do more sexually, to look hotter, to feel better in general, to have more energy, to be able to wear cute clothes, and to be a good example for my daughter. I'm guessing at my starting weight until I get a new (used) Wii, but I am shooting for 130. I'm only 5'2" so 130 is ok. Most sites say someone my height should be 120, but we'll see.
I'll be posting my weightloss ticker at the bottom of the blog. I also plan to set aside some blogging time. I need to get into some better habits, and that starts tomorrow! For now, it's bedtime!
SO! Tomorrow, I start drinking my water, eating more fruit, tracking my food, and exercise, and I will be squeezing in more exercise time.
I want to do this for many reasons, to be able to do more sexually, to look hotter, to feel better in general, to have more energy, to be able to wear cute clothes, and to be a good example for my daughter. I'm guessing at my starting weight until I get a new (used) Wii, but I am shooting for 130. I'm only 5'2" so 130 is ok. Most sites say someone my height should be 120, but we'll see.
I'll be posting my weightloss ticker at the bottom of the blog. I also plan to set aside some blogging time. I need to get into some better habits, and that starts tomorrow! For now, it's bedtime!
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Darn it!
So, I had this GREAT idea for a blog topic, even had part of it all figured out in my head. I started tidying up the house for the night, and checking email and such, figuring, before bed, I would write my blog.
And now it's gone.
I have no idea what I was going to write about.
So, since I can't remember what I was going to write about, I'll write a bit about this.
I've started watching a show on Netflix called "Obsession" It's about people with OCD. Now, while I don't claim to be any where near as severe as the people on this show, I do suffer from OCD. I pick at my skin, anything I view as a pimple, or possible pimple, I pick at. Then, when it's a scab, I pick that. I can keep at some, especially on my arms, for a long time, till they are really sore and bad. I also have some Trichotillomania. Usually in major stress, or if I find a pimple in my hair, I pull the hair around it, till I have a bald spot.
Now, I have never cut, but I have had urges to do so. I refrain from that, and I have discovered recently, that being spanked, totally helps that.
I have started asking Master, when I'm feeling super stressed, to give me some spankings, and it totally helps me, and grounds me and centers me. I love it.
I think that's all for now, I hope I remember what I wanted to blog about. I will say, from now on, unless I'm someplace I can't get to my computer, I will blog right away when I have a great idea.
I am also interested in finding a way to have people ask me questions that I can blog about. If anyone has ideas on that, let me know!
And now it's gone.
I have no idea what I was going to write about.
So, since I can't remember what I was going to write about, I'll write a bit about this.
I've started watching a show on Netflix called "Obsession" It's about people with OCD. Now, while I don't claim to be any where near as severe as the people on this show, I do suffer from OCD. I pick at my skin, anything I view as a pimple, or possible pimple, I pick at. Then, when it's a scab, I pick that. I can keep at some, especially on my arms, for a long time, till they are really sore and bad. I also have some Trichotillomania. Usually in major stress, or if I find a pimple in my hair, I pull the hair around it, till I have a bald spot.
Now, I have never cut, but I have had urges to do so. I refrain from that, and I have discovered recently, that being spanked, totally helps that.
I have started asking Master, when I'm feeling super stressed, to give me some spankings, and it totally helps me, and grounds me and centers me. I love it.
I think that's all for now, I hope I remember what I wanted to blog about. I will say, from now on, unless I'm someplace I can't get to my computer, I will blog right away when I have a great idea.
I am also interested in finding a way to have people ask me questions that I can blog about. If anyone has ideas on that, let me know!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Fahrenheit 451
Ok, I know I should be ashamed for writing this about the movie, and not the book, given what both are about, but I just saw the movie, and I LOVED it.
I am a horror geek, I love all horror books and movies, and while this is not technically a horror movie (book), to me, it is the ultimate horror.
I don't want to go into too great detail, I don't want to spoil anything for anyone who hasn't read/watched it, but if you are a lover of books, please, at least, watch the movie.
I cried at the end.
I may go into more detail at another time, but it's 11:35, and I must call Master to say good night, and get to bed. Just wanted to share a bit.
I am a horror geek, I love all horror books and movies, and while this is not technically a horror movie (book), to me, it is the ultimate horror.
I don't want to go into too great detail, I don't want to spoil anything for anyone who hasn't read/watched it, but if you are a lover of books, please, at least, watch the movie.
I cried at the end.
I may go into more detail at another time, but it's 11:35, and I must call Master to say good night, and get to bed. Just wanted to share a bit.
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