Changes
In the year 2015 I will be making changes
I do not like where I am right now, and I am ready to start making changes in my life.
One of the big things I'm doing is I'm taking a class to become a medium. To learn to read auras, tarot, to infuse things with intentions, to use my third eye to help others.
I plan to find what path I'm going to follow. I had started a class to learn about paganism, but due to many things happening all at once, I had to quit. I will be doing it again this summer.
Starting next week I'm taking a Divination class online.
I need to work on my relationship with hubby, it's not bad, just not as good as it could be.
And I need to focus on my health. I have some major health issues going on. And that needs to be worked on.
I plan to blog often again, to try to sort out my feelings and thoughts. One of the many good habits I intend to start in the new year. But before the new year comes, I need to do my best to get my house clean and Christmas put away. If only my back and head will stop hurting enough to allow it.
Saturday, December 27, 2014
Monday, April 14, 2014
Gloomy
I gotta get rid of this gloomy feeling. Every day, at least every day I work, I am in a gloomy mood. I don't want to be gloomy, I want to be happy. I need to find a way to be happy, despite my job.
I need to call my doctor and get my meds upped.
I'm looking forward to therapy tomorrow, this week has been shitty.
And I've got so much shit to do. First thing I need to do, is finish this scarf I've been working on for forever.
Starting right now.
I need to call my doctor and get my meds upped.
I'm looking forward to therapy tomorrow, this week has been shitty.
And I've got so much shit to do. First thing I need to do, is finish this scarf I've been working on for forever.
Starting right now.
Saturday, April 12, 2014
Good day
Today was a very very good day.
I did half to work, but to me, Saturday's don't really count as work, they are far more laid back, only a short day, and slower. Then the kiddo and I got our geek on, at a comic book show, and a comic book store.
I spent the rest of the evening working on my scarf and reading my new Walking Dead comics.
Tomorrow, more of the same. I need to finish this scarf, like two weeks ago, so I will be plugging away at that, I really should do some house work, so I MIGHT do that, and I will be reading more Walking Dead FOR SURE!
I also need to make a resume so I can start looking for a new job. Something I really need to do, especially after the crap that happened at the meeting on Thursday.
On another good note, looks like we are going to have a thunderstorm tonight, and I LOVE thunderstorms! I should sleep really good tonight!
I did half to work, but to me, Saturday's don't really count as work, they are far more laid back, only a short day, and slower. Then the kiddo and I got our geek on, at a comic book show, and a comic book store.
I spent the rest of the evening working on my scarf and reading my new Walking Dead comics.
Tomorrow, more of the same. I need to finish this scarf, like two weeks ago, so I will be plugging away at that, I really should do some house work, so I MIGHT do that, and I will be reading more Walking Dead FOR SURE!
I also need to make a resume so I can start looking for a new job. Something I really need to do, especially after the crap that happened at the meeting on Thursday.
On another good note, looks like we are going to have a thunderstorm tonight, and I LOVE thunderstorms! I should sleep really good tonight!
Thursday, April 10, 2014
Shortie
This blog is going to be a short one, today was too long,and bad, and I'm tired.
One good thing that happened, I spent the evening watching The Shining with Kiddo, and that was the highlight of my day.
I need to make it through the day tomorrow, and half a day on Saturday and I'll have a little break, including a small comic con with kiddo.
I'm trying to hang in there. This weekend I will make my resume. I have to get a new job.
One good thing that happened, I spent the evening watching The Shining with Kiddo, and that was the highlight of my day.
I need to make it through the day tomorrow, and half a day on Saturday and I'll have a little break, including a small comic con with kiddo.
I'm trying to hang in there. This weekend I will make my resume. I have to get a new job.
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
Peaceful
Today was a quiet, relaxing day, and what I needed.
I started off a little rough, dogs woke me up at 6:30 to go outside, I had a day off today, so I was bummed, but the problem started once they came back in. I started freaking out about our finances. Our washing machine died. We have to buy a new one, we have some bills to pay, we are going on a small family trip that is going to cost money the end of this month, plus it's Easter, so we have to buy a few things for kiddo's Easter basket. Then in May, aside from regular monthly bills, we have kiddo's birthday and comic con. So I was freaking out, and couldn't go back to sleep. Since Master was asleep, I sent him a text message listing off my thoughts, and that seemed to help, so I finally fell back asleep.
I woke up to get Master up at 8:30, and then went back to sleep till about 9:30
Kiddo and I chilled out, playing games on our phone and watching one of our shows, and then we met a friend of mine for lunch.
Kiddo and I ran a couple errands, and then came home. I took a 2 hour nap, then got up and worked on my scarf some more.
Master came home with dinner, we ate, watched tv, and then I worked on my scarf some more, and Master is sleeping.
It was a wonderful day, and I wish I could have more like them.
Tomorrow, is a mixed bag. The morning I have to go to meeting for work, and the last half I go back to my branch to do my desk work. So, if I can make it through the meeting, I should be good.
I need to work on my resume, my therapist said I need to find a new job, so I am going to work on that. She said, even if I don't get a new one right away, being proactive about it, should help me feel a little better, and that makes sense. I'm looking forward to seeing her on Tuesday.
I like feeling good. Just a week and a half and I'm on a mini vacation. Looking forward to it.
I started off a little rough, dogs woke me up at 6:30 to go outside, I had a day off today, so I was bummed, but the problem started once they came back in. I started freaking out about our finances. Our washing machine died. We have to buy a new one, we have some bills to pay, we are going on a small family trip that is going to cost money the end of this month, plus it's Easter, so we have to buy a few things for kiddo's Easter basket. Then in May, aside from regular monthly bills, we have kiddo's birthday and comic con. So I was freaking out, and couldn't go back to sleep. Since Master was asleep, I sent him a text message listing off my thoughts, and that seemed to help, so I finally fell back asleep.
I woke up to get Master up at 8:30, and then went back to sleep till about 9:30
Kiddo and I chilled out, playing games on our phone and watching one of our shows, and then we met a friend of mine for lunch.
Kiddo and I ran a couple errands, and then came home. I took a 2 hour nap, then got up and worked on my scarf some more.
Master came home with dinner, we ate, watched tv, and then I worked on my scarf some more, and Master is sleeping.
It was a wonderful day, and I wish I could have more like them.
Tomorrow, is a mixed bag. The morning I have to go to meeting for work, and the last half I go back to my branch to do my desk work. So, if I can make it through the meeting, I should be good.
I need to work on my resume, my therapist said I need to find a new job, so I am going to work on that. She said, even if I don't get a new one right away, being proactive about it, should help me feel a little better, and that makes sense. I'm looking forward to seeing her on Tuesday.
I like feeling good. Just a week and a half and I'm on a mini vacation. Looking forward to it.
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Much better
So, after my visit with a therapist on Thursday, I did not feel good about how it went. I didn't feel comfortable with him, there were things I wouldn't be able to tell him, and I didn't like his reaction when I told him about my job.
I asked a friend for advice on finding a therapist. She suggested that I do a search on line, using key words of what I was looking for, and then look at the pictures, she said a lot of times you can get a feeling based off of their photos.
So, I did a search, and found a page that listed local therapists, and I came across the therapist I saw about 14 years ago. I contacted her, and I had my first appt tonight.
It was a world of difference, I walked out feeling so much better, and hopeful.
I go back next week, and I'm looking forward to it. So glad I switched!
I have tomorrow off, and I'm really hoping it's like last night.
Master and I managed to get in some private time, and it was outstanding, I'm really hoping we get to do that again.
I asked a friend for advice on finding a therapist. She suggested that I do a search on line, using key words of what I was looking for, and then look at the pictures, she said a lot of times you can get a feeling based off of their photos.
So, I did a search, and found a page that listed local therapists, and I came across the therapist I saw about 14 years ago. I contacted her, and I had my first appt tonight.
It was a world of difference, I walked out feeling so much better, and hopeful.
I go back next week, and I'm looking forward to it. So glad I switched!
I have tomorrow off, and I'm really hoping it's like last night.
Master and I managed to get in some private time, and it was outstanding, I'm really hoping we get to do that again.
Monday, April 7, 2014
Ritual
This journal prompt was found at Submissive Journal Prompts
“Ritual is important. It is fulfilling and meaningful. It is beautiful. It is symbolic, mnemonic, and instructive. It establishes protocols. It expresses, defines, and clarifies conditions. It is essential to, and ingredient within, civilization. Similarly, do not overlook the significance and value of symbolism.” Vagabonds of Gor, John Norman
Ok, I have two schools of thought on this.
First school is pro ritual. I like rituals, I like how comforting and soothing they can be. It was part of what I enjoyed about the Catholic church when I was converting. When you first learn, or start a ritual, it's a great way to be mindful, to draw attention to whatever that ritual is for.
BUT!
Second school is against it, or at least long term ritual. Because after a while, you just go through the motions. At least, I find I do. At church, saying The Lord's Prayer, at Girl Scout meetings, saying the Pledge of Allegiance, etc, etc. It loses it's meaning.
So my thoughts on ritual is, it's good, but not for a permanent thing, they need to be updated, or changed up now and then, so you remain focused and mindful.
“Ritual is important. It is fulfilling and meaningful. It is beautiful. It is symbolic, mnemonic, and instructive. It establishes protocols. It expresses, defines, and clarifies conditions. It is essential to, and ingredient within, civilization. Similarly, do not overlook the significance and value of symbolism.” Vagabonds of Gor, John Norman
Ok, I have two schools of thought on this.
First school is pro ritual. I like rituals, I like how comforting and soothing they can be. It was part of what I enjoyed about the Catholic church when I was converting. When you first learn, or start a ritual, it's a great way to be mindful, to draw attention to whatever that ritual is for.
BUT!
Second school is against it, or at least long term ritual. Because after a while, you just go through the motions. At least, I find I do. At church, saying The Lord's Prayer, at Girl Scout meetings, saying the Pledge of Allegiance, etc, etc. It loses it's meaning.
So my thoughts on ritual is, it's good, but not for a permanent thing, they need to be updated, or changed up now and then, so you remain focused and mindful.
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